The Analytical Mind Of An Average Grinder.
My name is Robbie, i am currently a full time forensic mental health support worker and have been for the last 6 months. I live in london and im 22 years old. I used to be a fitness instructor but formed a rare balance disorder that was caused by a rare migraine( basically i was extremely dizzy and unbalanced) and i was ill and unable to do much for about 3 years. It was a tough time as an 18 year old and a lot of hard days but luckily i found a great great great specalist who put me on medication+exercises+ CBT and im getting better all the time. In fact i would say im 95% better just a few head rushes now and then, but yes its good to be healthy! Im a full time gym addict, i had put on a lot of weight and 2 years ago when i see a 21st birthday picture i couldnt believe how i looked , i had to change it any way possiable! I still had some of my fitness knowledge so i organised some exercise and started working out in my garden. I was doing bulking and cutting cycles and results were coming, very slowly. When i weighed in i think i was 15st 10lbs and 27.7% bf...to put that into perspective i remembered weighing myself at gym before i was ill and i think i was 12st 4lbs and 16.8%bf. I had a plan and made sure i worked hard and proved i could do it. Anyway to cut the story short next month i would have been training for 2 years. Im currently 10stone 13lbs and 15.3% bf ...something im very proud of myself for doing. I have a look more muscle then i would have (at just under 11stone i can improve on this though) and i look a hell of a lot leaner. So gym is very important to me and yes i eat strict.....and yes i carry tupperwear in my bag to eat wherever i go haha. I live at home still with my mum, dad and sister. I have a good family who im fairly close too. I passed my driving lesson 4 months ago and my sister gave me her old car which is a 4 door ford something, im awful with cars, but yes its very nice.
So yes that my life currently.
I also forgot to mention the other great love of my life....T.H.F.C!!...Tottenham Hotspur Football Club ofc.
I put a lot of effort into poker around this time and was doing well playing 50nl on sky with awful brm. As i put more effort into poker my game improved more and more and i built a bigger range of methods to learn. From just reading forums i joined training sites, skype groups, etc. I had some good results on sky, the highlight was winning a £11 rebuy for £1.1k. My illness was extremely disappointing at the age of 18, when everyone else was planning there future and going to uni etc i was stuck at home feeling ill , looking ill and gaining weight!....but it gave me a platform to find out about poker. I couldnt do a lot of active stuff as walking far was even impossible so online poker made a lot of sense. I had gained enough confidence to put a decent roll on partypoker and played 25nl , i had set times i woke up and played, i done well and beat the stake for a decent winrate, so i moved to 50nl and was doing well over 30k hands but then had a downswing and decided to withdraw my money and bottle it completely ! i think i wanted to have a spell away from the game as the inbalance of my life had caused me to become sick of poker in a sense. I had also improved in health and was going dog walking to get used to a working routine again...dog walking was my aunts business so i was helping her out 2 days a week. Sitting in front of a computer offering nothing was becoming a problem with me...i wanted to give back to people and help others so like i said thats why i withdraw my roll. A short spell after to get back to work i decided i would go somewhere 3 times a week to push my recovery on.....aspers startford! I had never played live and discussed with my sister if she would be interested in going 50/50 for a 30% share in me. So we each put £750 together for a 1.5k br and a 2buyin stoploss for the day. I done okay but the experience was worth more then anything, i got to see different types on poker players, not the young smart people i see on tv and on my skype groups....but gamblers, and it was fascinating to study there theorys and thought process and approach to the game. Also it has a great balcony overlooking parts of london so that made it feel extra special. Long story short i played cash games roughly 4/5 hours a day 3x a week. I had 1 good week, 1 bad week and 2x average weeks for a profit of +£90 after travel expenses which isnt great but i gained a great deal from the experience and at 21 years old not a lot of people would have the chance....thanks illness for giving me the chance to rebuild in this way ! I qualified for a monthly rake tournament as i had played 21 days (some days counted as 2) and the 1st prize was 10k....i was really excitied and studied a lot on skype and shoving maths etc and managed to finish 18th/200 for £440 which was a big overachievement for me and was great to pay my sister £120 for 1 months work to thank her for her trust.
What i hope to achieve for this diary
Basically i see this diary as a platform to learn. Like i say i post a lot on the site and this diary will give me a chance to post questions and theories and just general topics i think would be helpful and interesting. Hopefully i gain some good poker friends who can keep my chin up when things get tough....i get disheartened very easily and will constantly go from feeling great about my game to feeling like i should quit. Please post if u read and ask whatever you like!
When i think of poker Greg Merson stands out, his story of getting of drugs before winning the wsop is amazing imo. He also used to play to win money to buy drugs, obv that is not advised but even when he was drugged up he was still intelligent enough to win, which i think shows how smart he is.
Theres many people that have helped along my poker journey, iv never met any poker people in real life i would like to though. I dont even mean massive players. Just good poker people from sky pokers Tikay, Ryan spittles, tommy dyer and stuart rutter. DC's Threads13. wiltontilt, and someone i really admire Jay Rozenkrantz?
Id also love to meet Alex Millar...i hear he lives in london and it would be great to just talk to him about his life.
Also a fan of actually big name players: liv boaree , dan smith, justin bonomo, jake cody, mike mcdonald, phill hellmuth, issac haxton.
So thats me ! hope you enjoyed reading and it wasn't too long. I will update after every session and hope to get good feedback, post your thought !