Cowabunga!!!Hit the targets again (just in time for bed)! Same targets set for today but I have got some family stuff going on tonight that
might restrict me (father-in-law is over from Macedonia for a few days).
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I studied for 120+ minutes.I analysed one flop that I played BB v BU (642r), one flop that I have got a PIO screenshot of BB v BU (843tt) and for some reason I looked at a turn analysis (above actual hand 642r on 7tt turn).
I
should not have done the turn analysis as I am not ready for that yet. I think I was just really intrigued to do it. It took me far too long (due to mistakes) and took valuable time away from my flop work.
Lesson learned.
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I played for 60 minutes.I played
one table of 5nlz focusing on
facing flop cbet and
tilt awareness.
I got sucked out on and dominated a few times and
observed the tilt coming a little ("what, not again!?") but managed to stay okay. It is
not resolved yet though so quite a lot more work to be done yet.
I also made a few
call downs that I would
never have made before. I am not sure if they are mistakes or not but it was kind of good to see that
I didn't insta smash the fold button.
Something to watch!
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I meditated and visualised for 15 minutes.I used the Mark Devine
box meditation again. It is basically inhale 5 seconds, hold 5 seconds, exhale 5 seconds, hold 5 seconds. Repeat.
He also shows a way to inhale and exhale using the belly, diaphragm and chest which seems to help the process along well.
I felt really
relaxed and calm during and after the meditation and hit the tables feeling pretty damn good!
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I did mental game work for 20+ minutes.The Mental Game Of Poker (Study Notes)TILTTilt = Anger + Bad Play
In this book JT is going to specifically talk about TILT as an
anger issue (in general poker parlance it seems to have a much broader definition [for some]).
The solution is definitely
NOT "just don't be/get angry".
Anger is not the problem, anger is the symptom.
Solving the tilt issue involves
managing tilt at the table AND working on resolving the cause of it away from the table. This is much like I am now focusing purely on my flop defence at the table (and just playing all else instinctively) and working hard on my flop defence away from the table.
Avoid the
trap of thinking that "taking deep breaths, taking breaks, quitting, going to the gym, holding your breath or positive thinking are permanent solutions". Remember these are
just management strategies for in-game while
working on resolution away from the table.
The Nature Of AngerAnger = Conflict. More obvious when it is versus another person (car cuts me up).
Anger is not always bad as it can
motivate to action but can cause big problems.
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The first key to solving your tilt problem is to understand the specific cause of your anger."
It can feel like I am fighting with myself.
This conflict is REAL.
The confict is between what
I know consciously and the
flaws that exist in my Unconscious Competence. I am fighting to keep those flaws from tilting me!
Some days I will win that fight but on other days my mind will get overwhelmed by the anger and I lose control.
Losing control is hard to understand because I know how I should be thinking and know that tilt is irrational. Why isn't that enough on these occasions???
1. Maybe I do have the correct logic but still need to learn it to the level of Unconscious Competence.
2. Accumulated tilt.
3. I think I have all the pieces of logic to get resolution but actually I haven't yet.Accumulated Tilt.I have already made notes on this above but JT gives a good analogy here...
Emotion can be like a cup of water that is steadily filling up as I play. Each time I end a session a little bit of that water is tipped away as I remove myself but still some of the emotion from that session is left in the cup. essentially each session the cup starts with more water in it than it started the previous session with. Until one day the cup overfloweth!!!
There is a section Accumulated Emotion later...
That's another 20+ minutes really well spent on mental game!!! Up to pdf page 49 "The Tilt Of Tilt"
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Everything is good.
Motivation is high. Skills are improving (and most importantly I feel I am working on just one or two things so well that I will get them to the desired level of Unconscious Competence in the end).
Tomorrow is
my son's 6th birthday party so I am really looking forward to that!
Have a great weekend amigos! I hope you are
enjoying life as much as I am!? Keep growing!