Without rake back, and no tourney wins. I had a bad July and August was worse. I mean I still cleared 1k in July, but for August i'm only clearing about 800usd. I guess a wins a win, but when i can actually have hands hold up i clear more. Anyway, At 5k i'm moving to 50nl, and 10k (the Goal) i'll be at 100nl then it's peace out time. I used to play for a living back in 2004-2007ish, then stars died for US players, my bankroll was trapped on line for like 9months, and without the help of friends i would have literally been a hobo. No job, no house, no options. An ex girlfriend moved from southern California to SanFrancisco where i was living at the time and paid for me to get on my feet. I found a job working for StarBucks at a barista entry level. Within 4 years i was managing the store, Hating ever second of it, never surfing, never playing cards, not doing anything I liked at all. The relationship between me and the Ex had gotten stale, we'd grown apart, so one day she moved out. From there I Humped my way through every woman In SF that found me attractive. I'm a good looking guy, so that was a lot of humping #TeeHee.
Well after a couple years of #SlutinItUp Met a girl, settled down, then shit got real. We were going to get married but she loved Heroin more then me. She walked out one day and that was the last time i basically ever saw her. This is her and I Pre Addiction.
Heard at this point she's in LA sleeping w/ Drug dealers for H, I see her photo's on FBook and she looks awful. Right around this time, my friend told me that Bovada was US friendly. Being that I'd been freshly dumped by 1 of the only 2 women i've ever loved for Drugs, I through myself into poker. I mean, every waking minute i wasn't Surfing or working, I was studying or playing and putting new concepts to use. From 2004-2007 when i was playing for a living, i thought i was good... Basically I was just a Nit and people paid me.. After these 6months of nonstop Study, I know now that I've come Miles in my poker Journey and what i thought was "Good" in 2007 was a joke.
I guess getting you're heart ripped out of your chest while it's still beating is a good way to focus ur mind in other aspects. I think the worst thing though is about 2 weeks ago i got a call from "Her" asking if she could come stay with me for a couple days. Being that I'm still in love w/ "Her" I said yes, Biggest mistake I've ever made. I picked "Her" up from the bus station, (She's jobless, and carless due to her habit) Took her out to dinner to catch up. She looked horrible, so skinny, having trouble completing sentences, almost falling asleep in the salad. If you have ever thought a little piece of you died, you have no idea. I've loved this woman since the second i laid eyes on her, she's beautiful, funny, smart, fucked up just like me... Well now she's a husk of the person I once knew.
She ended up staying with me for a week, it was the most gut wrenching thing i've ever put myself through. She was constantly in the bathroom for 20mins at a time, she'd come out 1/2 dead and just plop on the bed not moving for hours. At the end of her visit, I'd wished that i'd just told her "Sorry, Don't come..". As i dropped her off at the bus station, she said the worst thing I've ever heard, "Maybe we'll be together in another life." #FuckingWorldShatters
As i was driving home i needed to stop and get gas, so i pull in to Chevron and walk inside to pay. I ask for a pack of Black American Spirits and $40.00 on pump 3. When I open my wallet, there's none of the $500.00 cash i'd had in there but a small note.
When I got home, i cried a bunch cause I'm a little bitch whatever, but then the threatening calls started. What "She" had failed to mention was that she'd gotten engaged to a drug dealer in the 6 months we'd been apart and now he was dead set on killing me. I don't really even want to get into that, but "She" had taken off her engagement ring just to keep this a secret, FUCKING RUTHLESS. "Her" boy was now calling and so I picked up and told him, she was on her way back, nothing had happened, please stop calling... To think that the woman i'd loved so much would put me in a situation like that, and then steal $500.00 from me. Well needless to say, I've moved on from this now.
From that moment on I decided i'd just take this poker thing as far as it would let me. I've been doing pretty well, my focus is getting really good, i can call peoples cards out before the hand flips.
well, wish me luck, I'd really like to leave The USA and all it's shitty memories, to just surf/fish/Poker in Central America.
Hows that for a second entry in "My Journey" ? #Fuck Also, I use humor to help me deal w/ the Bullshit, so If i've come off as "Too Silly" sorry guys, just working through some shit.