Becoming a normal person/player

Posted 8 years ago

Hello all!

I am 23 years old, getting 24 next month. I have been playing poker for about 7 years now. Basically I have been a microstakes grinder for eternity and thats only because I had an expensive so-called hobby or whatever. I used to smoke pot every day and in my country it costs 20€ per gram. So I spent like 500-600€ per month just to get high.

I have managed to build a bankroll to play NL100 a couple of times but mostly I have been playing NL10&20. That's sick.

But now.. I fell in love. Not its like the first time, but its more special now - I was willing to quit smoking pot. And that I have done. Been clean now for about 20 days (during the 6year smokingperiod there was a total of ~20 clean days). Took a little break from poker and my bankroll was spent on different places to live. We moved to the biggest island in our country (it is really nice and cool here + I don't know if its possible to get pot in here). Im sure if someone stepped in front of me with a joint, I could break and do a couple of hits, coz smoking weed is fucking awesome. But when you are constantly high from morning till going to sleep, it fucks you up. You have no motivation to get better, only to get money for weed/food/etc, but no extra. I am glad I found someone who literally fixed me (process still going on but I feel confident).

I feel like I am the best in microstakes (MicroGaming). I'll show some graphs just to prove it and I am eagerly waiting to get back to NL50 and then to the smallstakes. Ofcourse I make mistakes like any of us do, this is also one of the reasons of this topic/post. I am going to post some hands where I think I made a mistake.

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So here goes. If anyone has questions about weed and why to quit it, feel free to shoot. I know it is really hard if you are in so deep and outside help could mean a lot!
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Posted 8 years ago
Epic intro there buddy and not something I have seen before. It sounds like you are saying you are/were addicted to weed? I have never heard anyone say this before and it is one of those points weed smokers use "you can't get addicted or overdose from it".

Saying you are the best on MPN is quite a statement however you have shown some receipts so mad props for that! I feel so many players lack confidence so keep that feeling alive!

Here for the journey buddy! Lets do this Smile
Posted 8 years ago
I was addicted because I had some false ideas in my head, 1) I thought that i can't sleep if I don't smoke, 2) I never tilted when I was high - so it was am must to play poker, 3) I thought i can't enjoy life without weed. 4) etc etc

I think I am the best at microstakes (up to NL20). Haven't played 50 in a while so probably not in there.
Posted 8 years ago
also thought that i have no appetite if i didnt smoke, in fact my appetite has grown 2 times after quitting.
Posted 8 years ago
Bloody hell, great graphs. Good luck with poker and sobriety.
Posted 8 years ago
had an epic breakdown yesterday. got tilted for no reason, spewed 3 buyins really quick. went for a run after that and felt great after it. later on had some drinks with my girlfriend, got into an argument and onemoment i got so angry that she almost left me. i was such a douche.. Sad
Posted 8 years ago
wtf this happen much?
Posted 8 years ago
no this does not happen much, I have a lot of work to do with myself.
Had a little break from online and played a 110€ event (got a free ticket) live.
Lost half my stack in the 2nd level, and then grinded the shortstack for about 5,5hours later on.
Had nothing happen, couple of uncalled shoves with AQ and SCs.

Then had an interesting hand w ~18bb stack. UTG a bad player (I'd say 75/20 vpip/pfr) opened 3x. I had black Aces. I had 2 about samesized stacks behind me (who werent good and could not narrow my range to superstrong after flatting) so i opted to flat. Got one shortstack also to flat. 3way to the flop.

pot 4k, I have ~6,2k behind me

flop comes KT4ccc and the opener checks, I also check my nuts, trying to get a bet in by a bad player behind me, who unfortunately checks also.

turn comes the worst possible card in the deck Tx. UTG now bets 1,4k, I call pretty quickly and get a fold after me so HU to the river.

pot 6,8k river total blank. UTG now bets 3k pretty quickly

kind of a gross spot I opted to station him down leaving myself just 1,8k behind and he showed up with T6o. He was not a good player, would def. fold against a good opponent.

Got 99 the next hand, doubled up vs KQ.

Later on got another AA which I opted to 3bet ship (13bb) vs an EP open (a thinking player). got snapped by AA :D, split.

Then just pure folding down to 6bb and got it in A8 vs A6, 6 to the flop. Felt like I did my best except the first Aces. Talked to some players about it who said they would also never fold against this player and thought my line was best.

Back to online today, unfortunately NL4. Sad
Posted 8 years ago
Sounds like some typical live event torture! Welcome back to the online felt! GL
Posted 8 years ago
online felt is even more torture. having trouble winning in NL4. actually not winning at all. pretty much busto. don't really know how to move on.

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Posted 8 years ago
Graph took a while to load. Pokervip just slowrolled me with this super nuts image.