Guys I'm going to quit this, I've been putting the volume of a 'pro' in over the last few weeks (lots of untracked hands at Snap to keep the bankroll growing - not just the hands here) and it's not a lifestyle I want. Staring at a screen, sitting down for hours on end, lack of human contact, etc - it isn't healthy and I feel like I've been isolating myself from friends family, haven't been hitting the gym, have been fatigued etc. If I were to become a fulltime grinder I can just see myself becoming more unhealthy, more distant from the people around me and having difficulty with things like mortgages in the future.
. I think the whole 'poker pro' thing was about freedom for me, freedom to be your own boss, work when you want etc, but it's just not like that. The variance of the game is your boss - no-one can escape it, and it means that you have to put in X number of hours to win X amount of money. People say to 'runt it like a business, but it's actually much more similar to being an employee. You have an hourly rate rather than the potential for unlimited profit - only difference is there are emotional swings and no-one to talk to. For me to come close to earning as much as I do in my job and from my side earner I'd have to put in sick volume or play pretty high stakes anyway so it's not like it's even worth it from a financial perspective.
It's a shame really, the magic I used to feel when walking into a casino has gone, when I went there last night I just sat there bored, watching people's awful plays. Truth is, I kind of wish I'd stayed as a rec, not touched online poker and still could get that magic and thrill of real life poker, which is how the game is supposed to be played, not with HUDs and solvers etc.
I started with $1500, grew it to $2k on NL50 and am leaving NL100 with approx $2170, so I've been successful to an extent. My real passion lays elsewhere (it's the 'side earner' I have) and I should really be pursuing that harder.
So this is me signing off, good luck at the tables guys, and remember that the most important thing is to enjoy it!