Sup peeps.


Yesterday I fired up a couple of tables at the start of my grind and one of the big multipliers popped off with two marked fish. After running quite poorly for the first few months I've now had a burst of three in a very short period of time, two at the higher stakes and one at the lower stakes.



Unfortunately I'm now 0/3. Made a 7.5ish bb BvB call with A5o and ran into A7o, which given how fast he jammed coupled with the circumstance was probably marginal, and then tank-jammed 6bb BvB with 53s into cl fish after checking to see blinds were about to rise. Got beaten into the pot by 85s.....not that I'm to know they snap off with that there. Either way it was super depressing to just get it in bad twice against two weak players.



Whilst I'm managing little cashouts here and there my financial situation is still heading in the wrong direction and we're getting quite close to the bone now, so missing out on the chance of significant money for the third time in a short period of time really ****ing hurt. It also came right at the start of a long day of grinding so posed a brand new challenge to the last two big multi losses, which both came after the days work was already close to complete.



Now, previous weaker incarnations of me would've allowed this disappointment and setback to completely derail productivity. I went away and did my keyboard session to cool down (had a great session actually!) then came back to grind but realised my focus was dog****. I was still hurting. So I went away again, ate some good healthy dinner whilst listening to motivational youtube vids then came back and settled in for a very tidy session.







Cev was amazing plus I ran redhot in allins so profited for around 30BI on the day.



It would've been so easy to just quit and go and mope around feeling depressed, and there's no doubting previous versions of me would've done just that. I don't want to be that weak sort of person anymore. I want to become a person who I can respect and admire. Becoming a person worthy of self-respect is about how you respond to the difficult times. That's where character and mental-fortitude is truly built. Viewing the day as an opportunity to move a little closer to becoming that person is what gave me the drive to rage and battle against the pain. In the end I only lost about an hour of grinding to the heartache.



I've still got about 9hrs of grinding over the weekend to hit my goal for the week. Got a lot of stuff going on today so I doubt I'll get much volume but will be hitting it hard tomorrow because I'm quite high up on some leaderboards so there's an added incentive to grind. Every other goal is within reach too.



I'll drop in either tomorrow night or on Monday morning to review the week.



Ty for reading, Shelly.


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Hey guys, in case anyone wasn't aware this thread is mainly just a C+P of my thread on the PGC forum on 2+2. I've decided that I will be discontinuing the thread on this site because it's not as simple as merely C+P my posts, you have to do a lot of editing to make the content neat and easily readable and also editing out aspects that are specific to each forum. As I progress more and more time is becoming a more valuable resource and I've decided it makes sense to just have the one thread.



I'd like to thank everyone who has followed and supported me on this site, your words of encouragement and just your general interest mean a hell of a lot to me.



For anyone who is interested here is a link to the thread on 2+2 which I will still be continuing.




ShellysAshes - Spinning for a Better Life - 2+2