OK so a bit of an update:
Obviously not been doing anything with my weight and am now back to just below my highest weight. I havn't been a pure pig or anything just not eating good meals, bit to much booze and no exercise. I just kinda lost the drive.
So i went to the doctors for my asthma review and we spoke about my weight. I was pretty honest and told her how much money, time and effort i put into trying to lose weight over the last year or so. She said i was in tier 3 ( off the scale obese basically) and that i qualify for a gastric band appointment. Basically i would have to go and get assessed, all measurements done, weighed, medical, seminars, food plans and so on. Then they would say i can have the band or not........or they could instantly tell me and i could go and straight away get it privately for around £4k.
So i turn up for my appointment yesterday 30 minutes early. I just sit in the car park and what i see worried me. Lots of people turning up all twice my size, twice my age and completely ruined basically. Not being able to walk, 2 people helping them out of taxis, on mobility scooters and just totally fallen apart. It was a shock to the system that i could even be classed anywhere near these people. I am not under playing my size here at all im 23 stone but i am also 28 years old, can run, lift weights, fight and so on.
Basically i decided to bail on the appointment and cancel it. No way was i going to go through all of this at this moment when i feel i can do things a different way. Some may think this was a terrible decision on my part as well i should get any help i can but i am not an idiot and although i have been by stopping my training i can turn this around and do it in a better healthier way.